Couldn't sleep

So it is currently 2 in the morning and I can't sleep. I have a headache from sinus pressure, watering eyes, and a box of tissues next to me to catch my running nose. Who would of thought this is the condition I would be in when I finally got enough spare time to blog...lol!

It has almost been a month sense I posted last, and I often wonder how I can find time to write a book when I can't even find time to blog. I guess that is why I realized that this book is going to take time and it isn't going to happen overnight. It could take years with as busy as I am. To be honest even though I am so busy, all I think about is this book and what I want to do with it. I have memories and ideas constantly running through my head and I am constantly writing them down. The concepts and ideas keep driving the passion in me deeper and deeper. I almost just want this to be my life. To right this book and use it to help other who are going or have gone through what I have experienced. I guess in the end it is up to God and what he wants to do with my life.

This summer things should be slowing down for me alittle and I will hopefully have some more free time and I have already made plans for it. I already volunteer for the Ted E. Bear Hollow when I have time but I am also going to hopefully start volunteering at Clarkson Hospital here in Omaha. I want to do patient relations in the oncology department. I think it will help motivate me and inspire me to really get serious about this book. I also remember the one time I went with my mom to her chemo treatment at clarkson. All of the cancer patients in one room going through the same thing, sitting there watching the treatment pump through there neighbors veins. When I was there you could just see not only in my mothers face but the other patients faces that it helped to talk to someone about other things beside the horrible disease they are fighting and it helped take their mind of the person who sat by them for months but with never again sit by them. Haven't you ever been hurting and it seems everyone around wants to talk about it but at that time and place all you want is to talk about something else. I have and sorry I wouldn't believe you if you said you hadn't.

I don't have alot to give but I know one thing I can give is my time. If I had the money to change the world I would, but all I have is what God has given me and if this is all I get I am fine with that. All I know is if giving one hour of my time once a week give one cancer patient alittle hope, than it was worth it to me. I may not be able to save the world but I can try to make my part of it a better place!!!